7 Bulan

Salam alayk.

17.02.2020 officially si kecik ni masuk 7 bulan. 

Suka melasak. Kus semangat ummi papa dia sokmo.

Si kecil ni dah boleh makan makanan campu-campur dah. Masa enam bulan saya bagi makan satu jenis makanan per serving. Biasanya dia makan dua kali sehari. 

Bila masuk 7 bulan ummi dah perkenalkan protein untuk dia iaitu ayam.

For past two weeks saya buatkan nasi bubur kosong + sayur (bayam/brokoli)+ ayam + CBB+ EVOO + Unsalted butter. Still makan dua kali sehari dan petang ada waktu snacking. Kecik-kecik dah nampak dia suka makan macam mak dia. :p

She was ate them all, so yummy for her maybe sampai kadang-kadang tu mengamuk sebab tak cukup. Peruttt! Apart from that, si kecil ni dah pandai tunjukkan emosi beliau. I can see how she reacted. Contohnya bila time makan. Haa kalau lambat suap siap tepuk lagi tangan ummi suruh cepat dan buat suara "argghhhhh" marahkan ummi. Kalau suap air kosong, mengamuk menangis dia. Dia nak makanan bukan minuman. HAHAHA! She can differentiate between them. Allah, pandai sangat adik Ammara ni. 

Semalam dia buat percubaan untuk jatuhkan pasu pokok ummi atas rak tv. Macam biasa, dia suka buat ummi dia jadi tarzan. ;p

Itu je la kot update untuk kali ni.

psstt: hari ni ummi oncall 12 jam. Terpaksa hantar ke pengasuh to keep her papa' sanity. Kikiki. 

Tak sabar nak balik tengok rumah dah berkemas elok. Rumah ku Syurga ku.

Tahun 2020

Salam alayk...

Sedar tak sedar dah tahun 2020 dah. Alhamdulillah, we have new addition in our family. Ammara Batrisya yang dilahirkan pada 17 Julai 2019 yang lepas. Lagi dua hari dah nak masuk 7 bulan. Dah pandai macam-macam. Merangkak seawal usia 6 bulan. 6 bulan setengah dah pandai pegang meja/rak tv/sofa dan berdiri sendiri kemudian meniti. Ammara Batrisya, ummi jaga sendiri dengan papa. Dulu Ammar dijaga oleh tokma. Sekarang perkembangan anak ummi dapat lihat depan mata. Sangat bersyukur. Dari dia baby yang not easy, suka nangis dan tidur kena buai je sampailah ummi nak habis confinement leave ummi berjaya train dia dapat tidur tanpa buai. Lama-lama suka nangis tu hilang kecuali dia sakit la hahaha! 

Muhammad Ammar dah bergelar abang. Dia bahasakan diri dia sebagai Abang Ammar. Ammar jadi favorite adik dia. Ammara Batrisya sangat sukakan abang dia. Galok sangat dapat main dengan abang dia. Dengan abang je mesti terkekek ketawa. Abang Ammar dah 6 tahun. Sekarang tahun kedua belajar kat PASTI. Dah pandai membaca, dah pandai buat latihan maths seperti tambah dan tolak. Darab je ummi tak ajar lagi sebab ummi sangat sibuk kerja. Balik rumah settle kerja rutin, terus nak tidur. Sejak ada anak kecil ni tak boleh berjaga malam dah. Anak tidur ummi kena tidur jugak. Sebab Ammara dan Ammar adalah morning persons (ikut perangai ummi). :p

Ummi masih lagi bekerja di blood bank HTAA Kuantan. Tahun ni tahun ketujuh ummi dalam bidang ni. Ikut hati nak beralih tempat tapi papa menentang keras rancangan ummi yang satu itu. Mungkin sebab tiada redha papa, ummi masih kekal kat blood bank hahaha!

Kami baru sahaja menyambut anniversary kami yang keempat. Alhamdulillah baru 4 tahun kami berkahwin. Tak kenal lama, dalam masa singkat kami buat keputusan untuk bernikah. Alhamdulillah macam-macam kami lalui, pencapaian dan dugaan dalam masa 4 tahun ni. Antara pencapaian kami suami isteri ialah berjaya dapatkan rumah pertama kami yang agak selesa untuk membesarkan anak-anak pada tahun 2018. Means almost 2 years dah kami miliki rumah sendiri. Rezeki dari Allah. Degree journey ummi je tak settle-settle lagi. Insya Allah this semester will be my last semester to attend the classes in Bachelor of Biomedical Science. 

Saya tulis blog ni saya tengah on call. Menanti tamatnya waktu oncall yang masih berbaki sejam setengah. Weekend oncall 8 am-8 pm. Saya hanya boleh oncall during weekend je sebab anak kecil. Masih tak mampu lagi nak tinggal si kecil tu di waktu malam. 

Nah perkenalkan si kecil kami, cinta hati ummi dan papa, kesayangan si abang,

Ammara Batrisya (6 Bulan 28 Hari)

Till we meet again (yang taktau bila)

pssttt: doakan ummi rajin update blog naaaa. 

pssttt: baru ummi perasan, last ummi update blog tahun 2018. Yang mana tarikh tu adalah tarikh kejadian adik hahahaha!

Heartbroken

You were broken.

Us too Ammar.

Ammar seorang yang sangat ceria dan suka ketawa.

Ammar, gambar ni diambil pada 3/10/2018.

Ammar menangis taknak pergi. Tapi kami terpaksa Ammar.

Jangan pernah berdendam dengan kami. Keadaan yang mendesak.

Ammar dah memahami walaupun Ammar baru berumur 4 tahun.

Ammar matang dari usia Ammar.

Orang ignore perasaan Ammar, tapi bukan ummi dan papa.

Ummi dan papa sedaya upaya menjaga perasaan Ammar.

Menghormati perasaan Ammar.

You were mentally broke when we passed you to your biological father. 

And i don't know what's your current condition.

Ummi hanya mampu doa, Ammar kuat mental dan physical. Ummi tahu anak ummi kuat.

Kami akan sabar menanti Ammar.

Kami akan selalu merindui Ammar.

Ammar, jangan pernah Ammar lupa bagaimana Ammar menyayangi papa.

Jangan pernah lupa kasih sayang yang papa curahkan pada Ammar.

Kasih sayang kalian sangat kuat sehingga ummi rasa cemburu. 

Papa adalah segalanya bagi Ammar.

Ammar dan papa adalah segalanya bagi ummi. 

Salam sayang dari kami dikejauhan.

Surat untuk Ammar (1)

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Muhammad Ammar, sekarang Ammar dah umur 4 tahun tau. Ammar dah pandai macam-macam. Bila ummi ada kelapangan masa ummi akan coretkan disini. Hari ni hari kedua kita berpisah. Lama dah kita tak berpisah Ammar. 4 bulan mungkin, last hari tu pada bulan June. Ammar, ummi berharap, one fine day bila Ammar jumpa tulisan ummi disini, ammar takkan marahkan ummi. Ummi nak Ammar tahu, sebagaimana Ammar tak rela meninggalkan ummi dan papa, begitu jugak ummi dan papa. Kami pun tak rela berpisah dengan Ammar. Tapi apakan daya kami sayang, keadaan memaksa.

            Ammar sayang, hari ni hari kedua Ammar berpisah dengan ummi dan papa. Rumah kita terasa sangat kosong tanpa Ammar. Ummi sunyi sayang. Perbualan ummi dan papa pun berkisarkan tentang telatah dan perangai Ammar yang sangat menghiburkan kami. Siang dan malam, di mulut kami hanya menyebut nama Ammar. Betapa sukar untuk ummi dan papa melupakan Ammar walau sesaat. Percayalah sayang betapa ummi dan papa sangat menyayangi Ammar. Ammar, masuk je waktu petang, rasa rindu pada Ammar sangat-sangat kuat. Sampaikan tak tertanggung ummi nak lalui. Jiwa ummi kosong, hanya jasad bernyawa. Ummi terbiasa petang-petang Ammar ada dengan ummi. Teman ummi memasak mahupun exercise. Kemudian pasti ummi ‘berperang’ dengan Ammar, suruh Ammar mandi. Ammar taknak. Ammar menjawab dengan pelbagai alasan munasabah pada fikiran budak 4 tahun. Ammar bagi alasan sebab Ammar nak sambung tengok kartun Ammar. Kadang-kadang ummi terpaksa ugut Ammar, kadang-kadang ummi puji Ammar, kadang-kadang ummi kena pujuk Ammar, kalau mood Ammar okay, barulah Ammar pergi mandi. 

            Ammar, bohong jika ummi katakan ummi tak menangis merindui Ammar. Semalam, malam pertama untuk bulan ni Ammar tidur entah dimana dari ummi dan papa. Sukar untuk ummi tidur Ammar. Ummi tidur dalam air mata. Tak lama kemudian ummi tersedar, ummi keluar pergi ruang tamu cari Ammar. Kadang-kadang Ammar suka sangat tidur malam depan televisyen. Ikut mood Ammar. Bila ummi keluar, ummi hanya lihat alas tidur dan bantal kesukaan Ammar di depan televisyen. Ummi tersedar, Ammar dah berpisah dengan kami. Biasanya kalau Ammar tertidur kat ruang tamu, ummi akan menemani Ammar tidur sampai 5 pagi. Ummi suka peluk Ammar. Ummi suka tengok wajah polos Ammar waktu Ammar tidur. Suci dan bersih tanpa sebarang dosa dan noda. Papa datang pujuk ummi, 10 hari tak lama. Tapi ummi ni ibu Ammar yang melahirkan Ammar ke dunia. Tak sanggup ummi berpisah walau seketika. Ummi pergi kerja pun ummi rindu sangat pada Ammar. Inikan pulak 10 hari tanpa khabar dan berita. Susah hati ummi.

            Malam tadi, ummi masak makan malam untuk papa. Terus ummi teringat dekat Ammar. Makan dah ke Ammar. Makan banyak tak Ammar. Makan kat rumah atau makan kat kedai. Semua tu berlegar dalam kepala ummi. Sebab Ammar tak suka sangat makan luar. Ammar suka masakan dari air tangan ummi. Pasti banyak Ammar makan, pasti bertambah. Ammar, ummi rindu nak suap Ammar makan. Ummi suka suap Ammar makan kerana tak selamanya ummi dapat suap ammar makan. Tiba masa bila Ammar dah besar, Ammar dah pandai makan sendiri tentu Ammar dah tak perlukan lagi suapan dari ummi.

            Ummi rindu sangat mulut petah Ammar bercakap dengan ummi. Ummi rindu dengan setiap reason Ammar untuk menguatkan lagi alasan Ammar tu. Ummi rindu nak mengusik Ammar yang mana membuatkan Ammar tersenyum manis tampak lesung pipit milik Ammar. Dan ummi rindu Ammar panggil “ummi”. Perkataan keramat dan sangat lembut suara ammar panggil ummi.

Ammar, ummi tak dapat meneruskan lagi, ummi dah terlalu rindu.......

Salam sayang dari ummi dikejauhan. Jaga diri Ammar. Jangan lupakan ummi dan papa yang sangat menyayangi Ammar.

7 NOVEMBER 2015

Jaga satu hati, pegang satu nama. 

Simpan dalam hati, setia hujung nyawa! 

2 tahun lalu.

Pertama kali kita bercakap atas urusan kerja. 

And today, you are very important person to me. 

I couldn’t live without this man and i cannot imagine my life without him.

The one who always see the best in me! 

The one who always love me unconditionally. 

The one who never fail to make me smile everyday. 

The one who always hold my hand when im falling.

The one who accept and forgive all my flaws. 

The one who heals my broken heart.

The one who always wipes my tears.

The one who always hug me just to make sure im strong enough when my life turn down.

And the most important thing, the one who accept and love my son too much! And i was the one who blessed having him as my husband. No one word could be described how good he was to me and our son. I grateful i met the right person to grow old with.

Thank you abang for loving me too much. 

Thank you papa for always give your best to Muhammad Ammar.

Ummi dan Ammar always love you. 😘

The love still the same, just like two years ago! ❤️

I love you and always do! 

9 MONTHS TO GO

9 months to go! 

Bak kata wannad, 9 bulan terakhir ni mcm2 benda nak kena hadap untuk tamatkan pelajaran kami. Mmg orang kata, “alah 9 bulan je lagi.” 😞A

Actually  last week, i felt, i want to quit my study. Aku rasa mcm takleh nak go on. First, i just want to focus to my family. I was pity to my son, he need more extra attention on his age. Secondly, bosan dah nak kena travel every weekend. Hidup aku mmg atas jalan je. Aku dilahirkan untuk jadi seorang pengembara! 🤣

But when i remember again, how my husband had been sacrificed himself from the day 1 i continued my study, i push myself utk habiskan jgk degree ni. And i advice myself, why i started to continue my study! Ingat balik objektif utama membuatkan aku sambung belajar. 😖Bukan senang sambung study bila dah ada suami, ada anak, dengan kerja busy memerlukan komitmen tinggi, jarak Shah Alam-Kuantan, kos yang bukan sedikit, bermacam dugaan kena tempuh dari segi komitmen pada suami dan anak. Haha! 😂Tapi dimana ada kemahuan, disitu ada jalan. Okay, just bear with another 9 months!

Somehow, i become strong because i have many good friends in my circle! Who always have their good sense and always give their hands in any ways. I really blessed having them before we forget each other, bak kata paupau! Haha! 🤣

A RANDOM POST

Hai All. Assalamualaikum wbt and good evening!

 

            Mmm, I don’t know why I end up here again today. Maybe I have a plenty of time! Too much. Oh nope, I felt bored since my husband was slept soundly! HAHA! Yesterday, we were planned to go to Chemerong Waterfall. That waterfall situated at Terengganu, to be exact, Kerteh. Not too far from Kuantan, just about an hour and half to reach there. Unfortunately on the Friday, I got the whatsapp which informed that my working’s partner for this month had an accident near the hospital. So it wasn’t turned up like we have been planned because the scheduled of blood donation campaign which held at the Kuantan Parade was on Saturday, which was yesterday. This month I was in charged for Transfusion Microbiology Lab or we called it as screening lab. So, as the person in charged, who was responsible to this work, I need to pack the Nucleic Acid Testing samples that we were collected from donation campaign to send them to National Blood Centre in Kuala Lumpur. NAT is the one of the policy’s from Ministry of Health Malaysia in order to ensure the safety of blood supply.

            Therefore, yesterday, I was came work for a while to pack those things on evening. After that, my husband was picked me up at the hospital for a dinner together. I was craved for maggi celup, so my husband brought me to my favourite place situated near the stadium Kuantan. After my craving was satisfied, we were going to the Kuantan City Mall. The new mall had opened for a past few weeks which would be the new place for Warga Kuantan to hang out and window shopping for every weekend. I had significant memories with Ammar at that mall such watching the Mini Didi and Friends Karnival. It was held for 4 days on their opening ceremony. I was brought Ammar there for every each day except on the second day. HAHA! Didi was his favourite cartoon, he was really enjoyed the carnival and such a happy kids in this world. As a parents, nothing can be described the feeling for giving your kids a smile and joyful memories. It may be a small thing for others, but not for me. I missed his smile a lot.

            Actually, we were going there to find Ammar’s new clothes. But end up I shopping many things until my husband “woke me up” about our main objectives there. HAHA! To be honest, it is really important going to shop with your partner guys. When you are about to buy everything, someone will remind you between the needs or lust. Well, W.O.M.E.N. HAHA! If we followed our lust, anything we could buy guys. So, I want to give my word of advice , never ever going shopping with your friends. HAHA! After I realized, I shop too much (thanks a lot my husband), I felt the pain at my right’s leg. T.T I told my husband that I cannot walk anymore. So we went to the ground floors find the place or restaurant that I could rest for a while. My husband let me selected any restaurant that I would like. Definitely, I chose Coffee Bean guys. HAHA! I really love their coffee’s aroma. I couldn’t help myself. Actually guys, they have a promotion for any ice blended until I cannot remember when. We just got only RM10 for green tea ice blended which paid  by pay wave and we need to have master card (debit or credit). Their price quite reasonable from the normal one, so what are you waiting now? Go and grab please!

            This entry just a random one. I thought I want to review a few budget hotels that I had stayed every week. I just got an emailed which requested me to blog more about how my daily life could be such as my works, my family, my study and how I juggling all that in the same time. HAHA! To be honest, I don’t have specific time that I disciplined myself to follow. Oh, I will blog next time if I have a time. For the time being, just bear with my writing in this blog. I chose to write in English as a practice in order to start my thesis writing soon. So, please bear with my grammar. I am not so good in English, I knew guys I knew! (T.T)

 

So till then, XOXO